Happy Mommy, Happy Baby

 HE sent this to me through e-mail from California….

 I wish i was with you instead. I love you!

This weekend was good, bad, happy and sad. A lot happened. Overall the weekend was quite ground breaking. I got to spend the first Friday night in the new house with Rob being there. He finally isn't working on the weekends anymore so it was nice to be semi-lazy. I can't even remember what we did, probably just slept! Oh yeah, we had my crazy niece Ryan sleep over and she was spelling M-O-M, then following up with an excited, "that spells MOMMY" It was fun and she is so funny, just like her Mom.

Saturday morning we dropped Ryan off and picked up my brand new CAR. (I just heard Bob Barker's voice in my head) "It is a beautiful 2002 Jeep Liberty, with custom rack and only 30,000 miles on it!" I took over my sister's payment because my piece of dump truck died. Fantastic deal and I feel like royalty driving it compared to what I was driving. Now my daily trip to and from work (30 miles each way) will fly by!

Saturday night, in return for watching Ryan, my sister kept Reese OVERNIGHT! First time ever! I will have to admit I was a little upset right after I dropped him off. I think the chance to breathe and / or getting the chance to not be 100% responsible mommy made me a little sad. I don't know if it is the longing to have my old life or just the feeling of being sooo out of my comfort zone just because Reese wasn't with us. All in all it was a decent night and getting to wake up at 10 am was even better.

We picked up Reese around 11 am, got some breakfast, came home to beautiful weather so we decided to clean out the NEW truck and clean up Rob's car. Reese sat in the doorway of the house in his swing and life was grand. The whole rest of the evening was spent by the 3 of us just hanging out. I packed Reese's diaper bag before bed and prepared to get out of the door peacefully in the morning. And peaceful it was.

Another breakthrough…Reese hasn't officially crawled just yet but he pops up on all fours and rocks back and forth. So stinkin cute!

After 6 1/2 months you would likely think that everyday should get easier and easier to manage all the new responsibilities of parenthood plus the responsibilities you already possess. As the Brown’s get closer and closer to having their new little baby brown bun, I love giving them advice. But the bottom line is…I still feel like I CAN’T figure it out. Sure I got bottles, diapers, snotty noses and cuddles down pat. But what about everything else? When I overview my whole day I have about 3 hours of it that I actually value because that is about all the time I get to spend with Reese and Rob. The rest of the time I have is spent driving, working or sleeping. I realize that millions upon millions of people, especially women do this all over the world, with more kids then I have, making less money then I do. My arrogant boss reminded me of that. So how do they manage? How do you manage? I am just mentally tired. I used to be that girl who you would ask if they new the number to the domino’s on decatur and russell and I could tell you in a heartbeat. Where did the girl with the unimaginable amounts of useless information go? I want her back!